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Thursday, November 5, 2009

To myself:

Happy Birthday!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

random
so fogggy



wonder how many teaspoons of sugar is in this ~

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

A speck of kindness

For a week now, alf has been tellin us about the poor and needy and such things

and last week i thought about the street sitters on broadway and commercial and how i pass them all the time and i could give them a spare water bottle i could be carrying and stuff like that

but then alf challenged us about how giving them stuff doesnt really do much
we're not helping them at all
just helping them pass TODAY and not live a normal life

i like how he mentioned the
give a man a fish feed him for a day
and
teach a man to fish feed him forever

and he challenges us again with questions such as
who owns the pond?
why doesnt the man know how to fish?

and stuff like that

so TODAY
Oct 20
me and AY and raymond her friend missed the bus on the way home
and they're were lik let's go to mcdonalds!
and am lik..crap i could eat at home why am i going there
as i was walking there i saw a women give her change to a street sitter and i was lik hey! i could buy a burger for this dood
as i was walking towards the resturant i had all these questions as
would he even like mcdonalds?
i counter myself by saying beggars cant be choosers
but then again i thought i would like to chose if i had a choice

so i was like crap, i should go back and ask but i didnt

and at the door there was this pretty big guy as in weight-wise and he was asking for a dollar so he can either buy a burger or something or a bus ticket

i was lik DING DING! hey this guy know what he wants!
so i went up to him and ask him what he wanted

and boy oh boy was he clear and precise
if you buy me something you can get me
TWO mcdoubles and a LARGE fries
that's only 5$

I was hesitant at first and am like ill see what i can get you
surprisingly enough ...or maybe not as surprising
he came in with me
and stood beside me and asked me to get him that meal he made up
at last i gave in and said ok

you want a drink with that?
uhh....sure? large coke

ok what he wanted was stated
and he went into details
as in something like

not ketchup or mustard/i want this added instead

ok you're ordering yourself i told him

then it was silence

i thought to myself why am i buying this guy food?
to know his current life story was the best answer i could come up with


SO! i asked him
is this your breakfast or lunch?

breakfast/i havent eaten in two days

where you from?

westminister/am stuck in vancouver/ by the way do you have a loonie i need to get back there

i have a bus card worth 2.50

he takes it and saids oh its not enough its two zones you have a loonie?

so i gave him another loonie

we order and the total comes to lik 8$ something

and then he chirps in ~ hey you have a 5 dollar bill ill give you my change and i can upgrade

(the change was around 2.50$ i havent counted it ~ it still in my coin section of my wallet/ but he didnt give me back my bus card oh well ~ )

so yeah ~ i forgot i talked to him so more
apparently he hasnt been working for 7months
been on EI and that all goes to his rent
he cant get caught on the skytrain or else he'll get arrested

so yeah ~ and bought meal gave it to him

one funny thing was after he ordered he points to me and tells the cashier~ yeah he wants something too

looking at the total ~ and am not very keen on spending anymore since i dont have income and yeah
so i was like

nope
and yeha it was pretty funny how he sounded genuinely concerned if i got a change to order or not


so i leave
and he's like thanks man !

and am lik yeah see yah


than AY is lik YOUR SO NICE ~
am like sure?

but in the back of my head
the whole time i was like
this is what i would want someone to do to me if i was in that guy's situation
so it goes back to the

do what to others what you want others to do to you ~ something like that

so yeah ~ thats my blog ~

it was my first time paying for someone else meal ~ fun times^^


i have to admit ~ i was a bit paranoid
i used my debit card and i was out of cash after that exchange so i got more money and changed my pin JUST in case ~ if that dood was staring at it
cause i didnt cover it or ne thing
and also
the change he gave me ~ i want to use it up
but at the same time
how is money dirty ? its still money ~
hmmmmm

wonder whats God tellin me this time ~

Thursday, September 17, 2009

8.5 THOUGHT n FEELING aka. JOB INTERVIEW

havent wrote anything since Tsawout
so here goes ~
am just gonna write about TODAY
not gonna write anything else in the 8.5 ver.

anyways

I GOT THE JOB !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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is what i want to say


what i HAVE to say is

i DIDNT get the job due to scheduling conflicts
why? i cant work three days a week
even if i work TWO full days and like two hours the third day
......
the email says...ill go and quote it too
"We are currently looking for full-time and part-time workers. We are open Monday to Friday. We work around your schedule. For example, you can work once a week or up to five times a week. Just let us know your schedule week to week. We are very flexible."

guess not as flexible as i want them to be
but their reasoning is good
flexible tutors = MORE tutors = they have to pay us more

ok lets talk about this place that i applied to
its called VIP ENGLISH ACADEMY
i didnt know it was run by korean people until i checked their website yesterday night
why? didnt i check? i just didnt...no reason

so anywayS~ its on seymour and like dunsmuir (sp?) and its really a convenient place to work at
i mean the skytrain is lik half a block away and if i was bored enough i could take the 20 in front of my house and end up at the entrance

so so ~ RAMA my contact person who is a WOMAN and is korean i dont get why she didnt give me her last name in the emails
RAMA KIM gives me the idea that shes korean
but RAMA by itself either gave me an idea of like an African or something around there
OR japanese ~
by anyWAYS! (just to bother you WESLEY!)

so yeah ~ i DID get the job ~ i suppose that is a confidence booster
i mean she asked me if i had international friends...i somewhat do i think?
but yeah shes lik ok thats good

so technically the only requirement for this job is practically KNOW how to speak english and be patience
english i got ~ patience i can work on ....

so yeahhh..since am so GUNG HO about telling people to reflect about their lives
i started reflecting the MOMENT i left the interview room

i actually WANT this job
koreans ~ are not bad to talk to ...heck i was just watchin korean dramas yesterday night
and by three episodes i got back my slight interest in their language

but yeah ~ talk about the place a lil bit more is that theres 16 tutors...apparently ALL of them are internationals..meaning they are koreans and have either graduated or are still in schoool
so i would be the FIRST non as much international compare to them
that was goood
and then she went over what i had to do ....
which is pretty easy

GROUP setting = 1 tutor : 3 students
things i go over?
tongue twisters
slang/idioms
role play
games

i can do that ~

if its 1 on 1 its all up to the student what they want to talk about
all i have to do is correct mistakes/pronunciation/ and write down the sentences that they use and then go over it afterward with them

i can SO do this ~ and koreans i can stand them

BUT this is what i get
scheduling conflicts?
at first it was just ONE day
and then shes lik..hmmmm need more
so i gave her TWO days and went far enough to give her my wed
so tech i would be working THREE days a week
with two FOUR credit classes and one three ~
sure there are people out there that are doing it
ie LEWIS who is cool in all ways

which i aint ~ he's last sem am first sem
so yeahhhhh i cant do that
even with what i offered i still got no response
so that was it....

she did say to apply again when my schedule is more open ie 4th yr? or in january
she did seem slightly upset that i couldnt work
so confidence boost? not really

SO ! i got out of the building by 9:57
my interview was scheduled at 10:00
i got off the skytrain at 10:08

and all this time i been reflecting

POSITIVES? i got the job! wheeee but yeah i qualified
that it

negatives for myself?
no money once again
cant buy stuff NOR save up
so its STILL outcome and no income

God response?
how i feel now is that God is trying to say something to me
-i can only work ONE day a week
which means practically all RETAIL is out for me
i mean they would make me work crazy

-i should stop spending needlessly
sorry am a materialistic
its the way of growing up with nothing much and the fact that now i CAN buy i DO buy
i guess....after 10 calendar/UVERworld concert dvd/epik high album

ill stop
i dont even buy like blu-rays/games/manga anymore
rarw!




SO ill summarize
what i been thinking
i need to spend my time wisely
i need to stop spending
i need to study more

TIME - is lik smackin me in the face
as in the thing that i am worst at using
its lik wht my mom always says

spend time as if it was ur money
once gone its gone ~ you cant get more


i actually want to work at that place
after WINSTON college
i want to work and CARE about other people that requires care
i say this and yet people say i dont care about my brother
haha ~ the irony
i have someone in my face to care about and yet it seems to others i dont care

oh wells
but yeah that is another reason why i dont want to work retail
you dont really give a crap about a customer
SURE if a customer comes in you care for them for THAT moment
once they leave its over

i dont know what to do
KEEP MOVING FORWARD
that all i know
help me save me

Saturday, August 22, 2009

8THOUGHT n FEELING

am back !

THOUGHT N FEELING

WEEKLY UPDATE:
went away to victoria the whole week
to run a VACATION BIBLE SCHOOl at a first nation reserve
conclusion?
IT WAS GREAT^^
despite that some kids were a hassle but the overall atmosphere and experience was greatness!
will for SURE go back next year

it was great hanging out with church folks the whole week
highlights:
-talkin to SL and FY for the whole night and not sleeping fun fun ^^
-nail polish !
-walking a kid home with SL and CC seeing their houses was an eye opener
-eating chicken for almost the WHOLE week
-playing tackle capture the flag first time in my life
-one of the kids asking me to autograph their shirt
-peter singing Taylor Swift (which AP MUST put on facebook!)
-VL goin bonkers cause of mosquitoes

thats wht i can think of right now
got a lot closer to church folks
mainly SL/FY due to talk
haha
AP was hilarious throughout the week
still waiting for her to update the pics to facebook
WW was great being awesome
whoops i meant WL ~ thinkin too far into the future
VC was creeper ! lol love the ML/VC creep-ability!

hmmm the week was great i have to say
best out of whole summer
sleeping on pews for the whole week was greatness! haha

came home at around lik 5ish
slept at like 7 woke up at 930 thinkin it was STILL friday
haha so funnny
cant believe i slept for lik FOURTEEN hours
thats a first

come back
find out that PS3 slim is FINALLY announced ~
not really likin the look as it looks exactly as the RUMOURED picture ~
caught up on GT vids already ~
read my manga stuff

what else to say ?
i guess i can say that am gonna be gone for the next week also
doing a YOUTH camp in like salmon arm which is near kelowna
that be fun fun

listenin to GD's new mini album ~ prettty good
check it ~ if you can
here's the link for HEARTBREAKERS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOXEVd-Z7NE&eurl=http://bigbangkorean.wordpress.com/2009/08/17/listen-to-gdragons-1st-solo-album-heartbreaker/&feature=player_embedded

another tidbit
these are just ridiculuous!

COD:MW2


FLASH POINT

i want a RPG!! where is ti!?!?!?


Favorite GML of TODAY:
obviously i didnt read these sites during the week ~ so amma gonna put the one i love the most today up

I was walking through my brother's school and in some of the hallways I saw the same poster. I walked down this one hall and saw a guy putting up the same poster that I have been seeing all through this school. On it, in someone's handwriting, it read; 'New suicide hotline: WWW.Givesmehope.com'. I thanked him as I walked by. GMH
IMO: so true ~ killin urself aint the way

Favorite FML of TODAY:

same for this

Today, I decided to cook dinner for my wife and kid. After a long day of preperation and cooking I asked them what they thought of it. My 12 year old son then says, I would say it tastes like shit but not even shit tastes this bad! My wife then laughed and gave him a high-five. FML
IMO: wow...that sucks! i should start to learn how to cook haha~

Picture of the WEEK:

there's more than one but AP hasnt uploaded her stuff yet
but here's the first one

credit: JY


And again thanks for reading !

S M I L E C L O U D
OUTS!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

7THOUGHT n FEELING

short one

THOUGHT N FEELING

WEEKLY UPDATE:

going away for the week and coming back on the 21st
nothing much to say
for this week
forgot wht i did this week...haha


OH! today was at EB
saw a kid that was lik i swear 10 years old
or he had the height of a 10 year old

tried to buy GTA4

clerk said no had to be 17
parent comes up
and pays
gives kid the game

wht clerk said was useless
cant believe a 10 year old is playin 17 game

parent..= RETARD

Drama World:
didnt watch grey's
buzzer beat up to epi 5
pretty good ^^


Favorite GML of the Week:
new thing = GIVE ME LIFE

Today I was eating lunch at the mall and noticed a girl about 16 years old nonchalantly putting quarters in every single candy machine on the first floor. She then took an escalator to the second floor and watched with a smile as kids became happy and excited when they discovered the money. She GMH.
IMO: sweet^^

Favorite FML of the Week:


Today, my mom was gifted with a toiletry basket. I grabbed the lotion and used it without asking. When I went out, it began raining hard. I got wet and noticed my skin got very sticky. Turns out the lotion was actually body wash. People were wondering why soap bubbles were coming from my skin. FML
IMO: thats prettttty funnny ! SOAP WOMAN!

Today, I was on the bus, when an elderly woman stepped in. She looked too weak to stand. She looked at me with her sad puppy eyes, expecting me to give up my seat for her. I felt sorry and got up. As soon as she sat down, she says, Ha! Sucker! She didn't look so cute anymore. FML
IMO: evil lady


And again thanks for reading !

S M I L E C L O U D
OUTS!

Monday, August 10, 2009

6THOUGHT n FEELING

I apologize this one is late…however I am thinking am going to change the release day of THOUGH n FEELING to Saturdays instead of Fridays

THOUGHT N FEELING

WEEKLY UPDATE:
SO! This week has been a lot cooler
I dun have to turn on all my fans wheee!
Backwards! Went berry picking with
FY/HY/SC/SC/MC/AO
And it was pretty funn^^
Me and bro picked like 5.50$ of blueberries ~
HY picked lik 1$..which is kinda sad as we were there for a while
Went to fellowhship had games
It was kinda awkward cause finally JL intro me to gid
And it was….ugh hi guys?
Haha
Anyways tonight is fello for myself so yeah that be fun !
Oh yeah I got a free map pack from GT for COD WAW map pack 3 and the zombie map is FUN indeed!
Happy about that
Played it a bit with bro and bit with RM
Kinda intense
But the dogs are not as crazy as the second map pack
Been playing madden 10 demo to hell and batman demo is crazy fun !
Been thinkin a lot lately
About finances and girls
Haha ~ finances am getting a hang of it
But girls seriously…hard
Oh yeah speaking about girls
Went out with BC had Japanese food I treated her ! haha never treat people. Or hardly anyways
Haven’t seen her for quite a long time
So I was major happy when I saw her ^^
That’s pretty much it
Oh yeah I will be away for two weeks 16-21 and 24-28
16-21 goin to VICTORIA to a reserve to do a camp there
And 24 is SYC = SUMMER YOUTH CELEBRATION helping out there too
So am gonna miss out Two weeks of lik manga and anime ahhhhh !
Pretty much that it
Oh ! advance notice
Am gonna watch GI JOE tmr so ill tell you guys about that so yeah !
Also I watched the BONDS movie for naruto and that was epic fail….
also found this vid ~ gackt is SO GREATNESS!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFGYkvO20uI

Current Projects:
No progress at all for short story
No progress on Prototype vid

Drama World:
Didn’t watch anything new Japanese wise
Am on Epi 9. Season 2 of Grey’s Anatomy
Its getting a bit boring
But I guess its all due to fact that I only watch it when I have nothing to do or when am tired haha

Favorite FML of the Week:
I have THREE this week!!!

Today, I got engaged to my boyfriend of three years. I made the announcement on my status on facebook so people would congratulate me. The only response I got about my engagement was from a girl I knew saying; Umm, he didn't tell you he was cheating on you for three years with me? FML
IMO: that is pathetic….of the dood …sigh

Today, I was with my mom and my boyfriend at lunch. My phone rings and my mom excitedly says You have friends! As I'm about to answer it, she pulls out her phone from under the table and says Kidding, it's just me. My boyfriend starts cracking up, and they exchange a high five. FML
IMO: wht a mom!

Today, I realized how invisible/forgettable I am. At work, I went to ask my supervisor what I was working on today. My supervisor admitted that he forgot I was working today. My supervisor is my brother. We drove to work together this morning. FML
IMO: that’s…really sad


And again thanks for reading !

S M I L E C L O U D
OUTS!