in the end...

finals are over
the thought that everything is over
well for school for one summer
still hasnt hit me yet

gettin too much trauma
langara life ending for one thing
and wht happened on the weekend
everything seems to be fake not real

that this is a dream

so the current time is 7:20pm

i finish my last final at 9:30 AM
talked to cliff san when i finish ~ he still had finals to do / which was at 11
didnt want to bother him so i left him be and waited in line for the book buy back at school
played DJ MAX BLACK SQUARE while i was in line
that took too much concentration
fast moving items across the screen and had to pay attention to the person in front of me
when they moved i moved
even got a C for one song...unbelievable
when it was finally my turn
i was in the middle of a song
pressed pause
and took out my books
geo which i shared with bonnie was worth 62 we bought it for 70 ~ gr8 deal^^ 4$ for a text for a sem
philosophy + china was the rest
in total i got lik 86?
one book i couldnt sell
the useless book of china about westerners which was extreme bias that i didnt read except for one chap

after that unpaused my game and finished the song
phoned tina
no answer
i needed the company
i felt empty
lik i had nothing to life for
which i must say is very unhealthy
so i waited for the bus
listen to YUI accoustic GOODBYE DAYS once and the bus was here
sat beside a pretty white girl
was not intimidating enough to NOT sit beside her
played BLACK SQUARE on bus
played one round and i was home

walked pass churches chicken
was feelin a chicken burger
apparently they werent open officially
so i had to wait... 3 min she said

turn on the lights and waited and waited
saw the dood that brings in pepsi drinks for the store
i wondered...wondered how much he was gettin paid for this hard labour of pushing drinks around

got my burger
my chicken burger just the burger for 383
she put it in a bag while on the phone
no thank you very much
i was disappointed
horrid customer service

walked home
sat down
ate
very boring the burger was
bread chicken lettuce that was it
pictures always look better than the actual item
i was being optimistic
twice now i been fooled by the picture
i wont be goin to churches for a LONG while now

watched:
Senjou No Valkyria: Gallian Chronicles epi 3aka Valkyria Chronicles
Fullmetal Alchemist : Brother hood epi 3
Hatsukoi Limited Epi 2

updated my blog on gametrailers

played CALL OF DUTY WORLD AT WAR ONLINE played three domination rounds
found out slightly awkward when i was on the nazis' team
dont know why
maybe it cause i dun really like nazis

anyways
during one of the rounds tina called back
we chilled and talk about random stuff and i told them how i felt

being empty and all
and purposeless

and we establish the fact that i dont lik goin out by myself

and yeah that's pretty much it for gaming
got tired of gaming after three rounds

proceed to find some pictures of hmh but then computer was going queer
gave up and watched:
Season 5
Lost 9
Lost 10
Lost 11
Lost 12
Lost 13

and just finished
Terminator.The.Sarah.Connor.Chronicles.S02E16

i wonder if i can be like sarah
that episode talked about her mixing up her reality with her dream
maybe this is all a dream and i can wake up

reminds me of sat
kept waking up
and i swear that i slept
but i onli slept for half an hour

what is there to do now?
please tell me?
to look forward to trip to hk ?
to look forward to further gaming
to guitar lessons
to guys group
to what?

my dad told me to read a book or write something
and i chose to write something
i dun really like reading while my parents are around
but that just the initial thought
if i start reading it be fine
but i get rowdy when i read
never talk to me when am reading
i get really pissed off and feel VERY reluctant to answer your questions

before my dad told me to read
i had to pick him up from work
phone egg and had a chat
actually miss talkin to her
missed her voice
ahh my おねえさん did i write it right? feel free to correct me my japanese pals

hopefully ill see her tmr

by the way
beside all this feeling of emptiness of goal less ness
am in pain from the sun run
or more lik sun speed walk
i onli ran the first km
and obviously due to my ...ummm... size? i stopped and speed walked the rest
one hour and thirty six minutes 三十六

am in pain everytime i move
my lower back
my front and back thigh muscles i forgot wht they're called
my calf
my abs
it hurts to breath

but do not assume that i am complain
or maybe i am complaning but this pain is the result of my lack of actually goin for runs
just proves
that skippin 2000
100 crunches
50 push ups
100 of random upper body stretches
dunt really help with the sun speed walk
but the sun thing was good
knowing the end felt a lot better

anyways
the time is 7:45
i talked enough
that is all

n here's a lovely hmh

さよなら.:.